Down In A Hole.....

The past three weeks have been utterly unpleasant to say the least. Especially with the culmination of events that happened last Tuesday morning. I am still in complete shock over what happened. Supposedly keeping busy is the best thing to do in wake of these situations, but that just makes me feel guilty and selfish, as I know there are people (such as my Grandma) who were more deeply affected.  It's hard to just push something like this out of your mind. However, I am very thankful that I have such wonderful people in my life to support me, and help keep my spirits up. It's funny being on the other side, because usually that is my role. Anyway, I guess what can be learned from all of this is how absolutely fragile and imperative each moment of each day is. I am making an conscious effort to revaluate, and reprioritize my life. I'm going to try and disconnect from petty, useless things that I use to fill up my time, and start doing and experiencing as much as possible. That's the only thing suitable, positive and rewarding thing for me to do in this circumstance