For what it's worth

Lately I've been realizing more and more that the only person I can fully trust and depend on is myself. To be honest, this scares me. As uncomfortable as it is to admit, it's true. But, this is not the type of person I want to be, skeptical and untrusting. I have gotten by just fine in the past being completely unwary, giving, and quite frankly a little naive. If growing up and gaining wisdom entails trading in my heart for one with a hardened shell, then I don't want it. 

On another less serious note, 2008 was overall satisfying. I suppose the biggest change for me was the start of my lab internship and the intense focus that I've been putting on my future scientific career. After two years of bullshitting around in community college I finally realized what it is that I want to do with my life. Well, for the most part I suppose. Some things are in the works still. As stressful as my life is at times, it's worth it, especially when I think of all the future opportunities I will have.

This summer I am going on a trip with my mom and sister to Italy and Greece. Although it's going to cost me a pretty penny, the experience is obviously worth it. I am really looking forward to spending time with them in the midst of such grandeur, and making remarkable memories that I will always carry with me. I feel horrible that I never get to see my family because of my currently rigorous schedule. This will be a nice way to get some quality time in though.

I'm off to work and then the gym. Life goes on...