LOVE IS NOT A VICTORY MARCH

I'm listening to Jeff Buckley's Hallelujah on repeat. Something about this song makes my stomach spin almost as if I'm plummeting in a downward spiral on a roller coaster. The feeling is just as thrilling; no matter how uneasy I become I keep listening. One day I hope to create something that will penetrate a person's consciousness and invade their thoughts. Something that will make a person question what I was thinking or feeling at the moment of creation and cause them to think about moments in their own lives where they have felt similar emotions. You are not alone.

Who's gonna save my soul now?

"When was the last time you wanted to say it all to the right person? To have it all come out right, to surprise yourself at how together you could be. When was the last time you ever met someone who made you want to give it all to them? I mean give yourself to them. Where you couldn't express yourself enough - like you wanted to cut off one of your arms to beunderstood. That's it - you would cut your head off to have someone understand you. You know how pointless that one is. You know how many times you've smashed yourself to bits on the rocks."

i really need to slow down. sometimes i feel like i am just breezing through life not really concerning myself with anything, but i guess that's what summer is supposed to feel like. rest. relaxation. fun. when school starts i know that i will be wishing for the summertime again, so i might as well enjoy it.