sometimes when i can't sleep i take deep breaths and count them. if that doesn't work i usually turn on a nature show. something about the images are soothing. if i listen to music my mind will focus on the lyrics and i recite them in my head. that keeps me up. i guess this is my last resort, and it's not even that late, which is sad. why is it that you think about all of the things you try to avoid when you are laying in bed at night. the overflowing of deep depressing thoughts this time of the night makes going to sleep my least favorite event. at least when i'm by myself. but as soon as my eyes get tired from the computer screen all these thoughts will pass.

tomorrow is going to be a great day, so maybe i should think about that. if all goes as planned kayla and i will be hitting the beach in our favorite secluded spot. i can't wait.